Friday 3 Feb 2012

WOW!!! What an incredible week we have had!  I fell sick with the flu on Sunday afternoon (29 Jan), so I didn’t attend lectures Monday or Tuesday, then on Tuesday Jared fell sick with the flu and stomach flu...so on Wednesday he did not attend lectures! Praise The Lord we are both on the mend and feeling much better!  The staff here have been so wonderful, especially during our sick period.  We had food brought down to our rooms for us, so that we did not have to climb the 60 stairs up to the kitchen, and they made special food for us (me being pregnant and Jared having a sensitive stomach!) apart from the usual (rice!) haha.

 The Lord is working so wonderfully this side, I must be honest when I first thought of coming to DTS I was thinking it purely as a “career” move in full time ministry (something to have under my belt)... little did I realise how much work The Lord actually wants to within me.  During the second night of being in India, I felt The Lord say to me “WHO ARE YOU? I DO NOT KNOW YOU?” This clear statement made me realise that after all the ‘stuff’ that I was doing in His Name, it didn’t actually mean anything to Him. He wants ME more than my works. My heart was broken, I wept and prayed and wept some more, asking for forgiveness...and committed myself to spending time with Him every single day for the rest of my life!

Jared getting a much needed haircut from one of the staff members LUCHIMO, who is from North East India, Naggaland (common eaters of the King chilli) 

Within the 2 weeks thereafter, The Lord showed me the following areas I need to allow Him to work in:

·         Image problems (which He recently revealed as a lack of confidence in who I am in HIM)

·         Selfish, putting my own priorities above Him – subconsciously I think I knew this, as I did not want to go to Him (scared to hear what He would say) about whether or not I should go on outreach (8 weeks long) after the lecture phase (12 weeks long) as I will be 27 weeks pregnant, it will be hitting Summer where the temp goes up to 45^oC, we will be walking around 8 km some days, and I was thinking how will I have my checkups etc... All these thoughts were going through my head, keeping me from handing it over to Him.  When I realised that this is what He wanted me to do, I handed it over to Him and automatically was given peace about the whole situation, if He wants me to go, I will go.  I know He will take care of the baby and I and provide whatever we need.  So now I just have to wait and hear what it is He wants me to do.

·         That physical work is not a chore but an act of worship

·         That He has given us AUTHORITY when we pray

·         That any fear that we might have is not from Him but from the evil one

·         How important worship is!!! That is one thing that I can do all day, is worship Our King.  It is so sad because our culture is so stuck in the way people see one another (their image) and this hinders the way we worship The Lord.  If we are focused on what other people think during our time of Praise to Our King, who or what is our mind actually focused on?  After making the decision to not care about what people think I was able to sing at the top of my voice, and shout His name, to kneel down and sit at His feet, or just to let The Holy Spirit take over and cry without holding back... and I had the most incredible meeting with The Lord (it was actually at this time when He revealed that I view my own priorities above His).  In Tehillah praise God dwells, it is a place of meeting with God, I was truly worshipping My King!

Sweeping our room

The most profound thing that He revealed to me (yes there is more) is that all we need is a willing heart and time to be quiet and just listen to Him for Him to start revealing things in your own life...make the decision!  Some advice that we have been given here is to meditate/focus on a specific character of The Lord’s each day, so that you will truly get to know our Lord and Saviour. (see new section ‘Books we are reading’)

Praying for you all, look forward to hearing His exciting works           

Thank you, come again J

Volley ball with some students and staff members